I was walking in a mall recently and this roadshow sales lady came up to me and told me to try her skin care products and that it would brighten my skin. That was her opening line!
A lot of thing came up after that encounter with her. I was reminded of all the times that I was bullied in school because of my dark complexion. I was called names, left out of activities (once some girls said that they wouldn’t come for a game of basketball if I were there and my friend actually came up to me and asked if I still wanted to be play in the game because all of them wouldn’t turn up if I went, I still went anyway. Only my two friends and I were there. I was 12 by the way), scratched, turned away from, kids would wipe their hands if they touched me and even refused to touch my worksheets.
These happened in the diverse, multi-racial and multi-cultural Singapore. And I believe it happens everywhere around the world.
I was dwelling in the negativity in my head for a while and then had some sudden insights that helped me to snap out of it.
- If this issue is still affecting me after so many years, it means I still have work to do in this area. I need to release and open myself up to love.
- I created a perception about the situation in my head which probably was not true anyway.
I just came back from a 4-day mindfulness retreat and remember a monastic telling us that the scent and beauty of a rose does not change or diminish just because everyone has an opinion about it. How very apt.
I am worthy of love. I am beautiful. My body is the vessel of love, kindness and joy. And I respect my vessel that allows me to touch the lives of so many people. I will make it my mission to lead people to the realisation that love, kindness and compassion are our innate similarities which makes all of our external differences so insignificant.
Love to all! ❤